Defeated

Do you ever feel like your efforts to be a good wife and mom are being deliberately sabotaged? I've had one of those days. Actually it started last night. I won't go into too much detail, but I spent a lot of time and effort yesterday doing something I thought was helpful and good for my family, only to have it completely ruined. At first there was a "so what" attitude, until I started crying which I couldn't help but do. I just felt utterly defeated. There have been a few other things recently that have happened similar to this, but I managed to keep strong. I just couldn't last night and felt like giving up. It felt like I've been trying very hard lately and no one has noticed. Not only that, but have even "undone" things I have completed. So I'm having a down day. Not really a bad day, just down. This morning as we were getting up Miriam decided to flop down on the bed as I was raising my head. The back of her head hit me right at the eyebrow. I just didn't need that today of all days so now I have a headache on top of just being sad. I do feel like having a pity party for myself. I really don't feel like this very often. Not that things don't bother me, but that I normally don't react this strongly. I'll probably feel better tomorrow.